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You know I think Ive hit near bottom. 'Cause I'm trying to figure out life and nothing fits together. And Im getting real angry, cause i feel like im walking around and no one is happy, no one knows why they are here or what they want out of their life. and i walk with these people. i am these people. because at seven i had my life planed out and at 10 i knew where i was going and 13 brought on conformation that this was real and at 16 i set things straight and here i am 18.95 and scales tipped- and suddenly i dont want to sell things to people, music or other. i dont want to go into business, i dont want to make money. ive got one thing straight and that is that people are important. or atleast they should be. but im walking around and i feel dead.

Tonight was beautiful. If I could ever copyright a night or a moment, tonight was it. Nothing major happened either, just the beauty of nature. Now, I never said that outloud. In fact no one was around when I thought it. You may never have known that if I didnt write it. Yes I could have been verbal about it, but I like that the only thing I told was a bunch of computer chips. The night is still mine, still private (or so I think I will remain disallusioned to your reading of my postings). So it got me thinking, I cant copyright tonight and I cant save the feeling in my memory for all of eternity, as much as I wish I could. So Im going to be content with having it here and being able to come back and live in that moment once again.