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Hey! What a difference a day makes! Super happenings of today:
Saw Jenny and Melanie!!! YAY!!! This was pretty cool cause I didnt think I'd be able to, but I did! My mom baked some food to bring back to my place :) Love Moms. My Dad is headed to Nashville tomorrow for work and will be taking me out to eat! Maybe I can take Lauranne...we'll see. Of course I bet Meg would love some Outback too. Also! I am going home for Thunder over Louisville (It's in April) and it looks like I'll be taking all my Belmont Girls back with me!! How cool is that? We'll go to bardstown and shop the vintage stores and then spend a cool day with an Air Show and FIREWORKS! W00t. We decorated for Christmas in my room! Stop by! Wright 313, we have a tree and stockings...major cool. Maybe we should wrap our door in cheap wrapping paper. Oh yay! Meg said we should.
Cool, so I'm going to go edit my paper for class tomorrow.

some things will always give you a new perspective on life. one of those things is death. dont ever take a single life for granted. i love you, friend.

There's a new world you enter in once you've pasted the realm of 2am darkness. This whole town seems content to sleep. And in this moment it strikes me funny that everyone gives into the prisons we call bodies. I guess we're living in a lot of prisons though, I have rules for the way I should act, drive, talk, ...write. Its a prison out there, and in here I'm reclining against the cement wall, looking at the moon from the window thinking to myself, "well, at least the moon is free. I want to be the moon." But the moon isn't free, its trapped in an orbit like the rest of us, a gravitational pull we can't release ourselves from. So now im sitting here wondering what these words would look like if they didn't follow the rules. I bet you they wouldn't stay in these lines, so neat, so perfect. 'cause why would you obey a rule you didn't have to?

You know I think Ive hit near bottom. 'Cause I'm trying to figure out life and nothing fits together. And Im getting real angry, cause i feel like im walking around and no one is happy, no one knows why they are here or what they want out of their life. and i walk with these people. i am these people. because at seven i had my life planed out and at 10 i knew where i was going and 13 brought on conformation that this was real and at 16 i set things straight and here i am 18.95 and scales tipped- and suddenly i dont want to sell things to people, music or other. i dont want to go into business, i dont want to make money. ive got one thing straight and that is that people are important. or atleast they should be. but im walking around and i feel dead.

Tonight was beautiful. If I could ever copyright a night or a moment, tonight was it. Nothing major happened either, just the beauty of nature. Now, I never said that outloud. In fact no one was around when I thought it. You may never have known that if I didnt write it. Yes I could have been verbal about it, but I like that the only thing I told was a bunch of computer chips. The night is still mine, still private (or so I think I will remain disallusioned to your reading of my postings). So it got me thinking, I cant copyright tonight and I cant save the feeling in my memory for all of eternity, as much as I wish I could. So Im going to be content with having it here and being able to come back and live in that moment once again.